You Will Never Know

You will never know how close I came to calling you just to let your voice come through,
Then drop the phone like it could burn the floor.
You said, "See you soon," like you could mean it.
I smiled like I had practiced being fine.
Your eyes were halfway gone before the leaving.
I held my breath and let you take your time.
You will never know how much that evening cut me wide,
How my heart burned wild inside each time the screen lit up the room.
You will never know, no, no, no,
How badly I have missed your smile.
No, no, no, no, how I've let it still look whole.