I Used to Roll My Eyes

She laughs because she sees it too,
How I've become what I refused to understand back when I thought that growing up meant giving up.
When did I start counting dollars?
When did risk become too much?
I can see my younger face, disappointed in my touch.
I used to roll my eyes at this,
At playing safe and sailing in, at choosing quiet over wire,
At leaving early with a smile.
Now I'm the punchline of the joke,
The cautious man I used to mock.