Never Let You Stay

I only let you in, enough to want you more.
I know the way you look at me, like I could be the one.
But that's the part that makes me leave before we get too far.
I don't know how to hold on, only how to let go.
I don't know how to stay still when it starts to feel like home.
I keep running from the real, chasing just to chase.
I get high on the beginning, never let you stay.
I keep hunting for the feeling, then I walk away.
Addicted to the wanting, never let you stay.
I collect the moments, never keep the rest.
I'm afraid of what comes after.
I say yes, another touch, another thrill,
Another name I'll forget.
I'm only good at the rush, not what happens next.