Lies and Insects

Everything's alright.
The last time that I cried was at my grandma's funeral,
It's no surprise.
I'm sorry if I seem detached and distracted.
I have too many questions, too many lies,
And it's exactly what I need to be content.
You know it could be worse.
My friends all say I'm cursed.
They don't see my smile behind my face.
I'm hurt.
The whole world's out to get me.
That's what I've learned.
But who can I trust when the insects are in the earth?
And I'm sorry if I seem detached and distracted.
I have too many questions, too many lies,
And it's exactly what I need to be content.