Way Too Self Aware Still

While I'm ten steps ahead all along.
Every word turns into a maze; I get lost inside my own mistakes.
You say,
"Just let your heartbeat choose," but I only see the ways we'll lose.
You're a spark I'm pouring rain,
Trying not to leave you with the pain.
Don't fall for me too hard tonight; I'm already seeing our goodbye.
You deserve a heart that won't run away; mine keeps breaking everything it makes.
Don't fall for me too hard tonight; I'm already seeing our goodbye.
You deserve a heart that won't run away; mine keeps breaking everything it makes.
I replay every little touch, think too little,
Think too much, instead of dancing in the light.
I'm predicting every fight,
You're looking at tomorrow's sky; I'm counting reasons we won't fly.
Maybe honesty will hurt less now than disappearing somehow.